Too Much to Ask? (02.21.08)

Given that my past relationships didn't work out in the end, there were obviously some problems and things that both parties were doing wrong. Here is what I feel about relationships & how they should be.

First and foremost, I feel that a good relationship takes work to succeed. It may sound like a bad thing to say one has to work at a relationship for it to be good, but it's really not a bad thing. Relationships are about give and take on both sides. However, I do feel that there comes a point when one just doesn't have anything left or more to give. For me, this is when said relationship hits a crossroad and decisions need to be made on both sides. Decisions that need to be made together, not individually. I believe that if both sides want a relationship to work, it will. If a person wants something bad enough, they make it happen. It's not always easy and there are times that it may be difficult and/or trying, but often times the reward is well worth it.

What is it that I want? What am I looking for? I'm looking for my "person." The one that I come home to after a long, short, good or bad day at work. The first person I share all of my news with – whether it's big, small, good or bad. The person I share my life with and give my all. The person I can count on through thick and thin. The person that I enjoy spending my time with no matter what we do. It's not about going out and spending money, it's about the quality of time with the person I care about (and hopefully will one day love). The person I sometimes will only see long enough to crawl into bed with and cuddle. The person that I have the level of comfort with that I can just crawl into bed with them and not have to share words with for each other to know how we feel care. The person that understands I want to make the best of what time we have together – even if it's not as much as we'd like. Someone who will understand that sometimes there just isn't time for going out or even a movie at home, but wants to enjoy my company as much as that little time will allow.

I've managed to work two jobs and hold a relationship down. I've managed to work the opposite schedule as someone else and hold a relationship down. Both situations took some work and effort. It got frustrating as hell that there wasn't as much time as I wanted. But I was always able to make the best of what little time we were able to share. That was and is all that I can ask of a person.